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i'd have written winter when it was less cold
now, well, it is better
anything to make the cold
gut itself
into a ritual bowl
or saturate handkerchiefs with ink
not
bood
as blood is
only that which
touches hands
in a healing
only in a holding
if only we could have held hands and hands hands hands
if only we would have held any hands at all
my hand
i wonder what it is that i left out
what i am still holding
what i lone do