he sits at a black screen to work
he says the screen is sucking at him and it is a sponge
he says how sad to be jealous of the past
"i was so much smarter then. more manic, now, more depressed"
so easily said, with a gesture of dismissal
shitting the thought
until we both sit dumb
he sits at the black screen to work
and when the work is done he goes to find new shoes